I can't believe it's been almost a month since I last wrote!!

I've realized that I have not been following the items listed in my blog description too well. So, here I am starting again!

Word of the Day: Caterwaul (to make a harsh cry or screech)
Song of the Day: Jolene, Ray LaMontagne

Well my first camping trip is over...and I would say it was a success!! I had a lot of fun and the weather was not as bad as I thought it would be, thank goodness. My friends are awesome!

So me and some friends are going camping tomorrow night and coming back Sunday. I've never been camping before and am a little nervous! Plus the fact it is going to be FREEZING!!!!!! Wish me luck. Hopefully, I will return and can post some pictures!

Unfortunately

I have had some personal things going on recently, so I haven't been in the mood to blog. Has anyone missed me?! I want to get back into the swing of things, so I decided to start today even though I don't really have anything to say.

I am currently reading John Dies in the End, by David Wong. It's a bit of a weird book. If you know and like Christopher Moore, then you will probably like this book.

I am also currently, extremely infatuated with Ray LaMontagne so I am constantly listening to him! The below song makes me cry and gives me goosebumps EVERY time I hear it! I also posted the lyrics below as well.



There may come a time, a time in everyone's life
Where nothin' seems to go your way
Where nothing seems to turn out right
There may come a time, you just can't seem to find your way
For every door you walk on to, seems like they get slammed in your face
That's when you need someone, someone that you can call.
And when all your faith is gone
Feels like you cant go on
Let it be me
Let it be me
If its a friend that you need
Let it be me
Let it be me
Feels like your always comin' on home
Pockets full of nothin' and you got no cash
No matter where you turn you ain't got no place to stand
Reach out for something and they slap your hand
Now i remember all to well
Just how it feels to be all alone
You feel like youd give anything
For just a little place you can call your own
That's when you need someone, someone that you can call
And when all your faith is gone
Feels like you cant go on
Let it be me
Let it be me
If its a friend you need
Let it be me
Let it be me

Fifth Book of the Week: To Be Continued

I really enjoyed this book, but I ran out of time to read it! It is due back at the library. So I am going to reserve it again and then write what I thought about it.

PS: The book is really good so far, so if you want to read it, go ahead. I think you will enjoy it!

Just heard this song and I LOVE IT!! Thought I'd share:

Word of the Day: Purfle (to finish with ornamental border)

Song of the Day: Maroon 5's New CD. ALL OF IT!!!

I am reading Ephesians right now and it is pretty good. Granted, I'm not that far, but I've been watching my church's podcasts and following their lesson. I think listening to someone explain the books of the bible are better, sometimes, than just reading them yourself because you can get more out of it. Makes you think about things that you might not have on your own. The Pastor was saying how Ephesians is about living your best life through Jesus. That some of us are 'surviving' instead of thriving, which I find very true because I feel like I am simply surviving most of the time. What in us makes us feel that living this way is okay? Is it laziness? Ignorance? The belief that things will just come to us? I have really been trying to live a better life recently, and I can see how giving up and reverting to old ways can seem appealing, but we have to put in the hard work to get anything good. I keep trying to remind myself of this whenever I feel like giving up and it helps a lot.

Ephesians 1:13-1

And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in Him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession.

So yesterday was kind of a bad day, but I have gotten over it and am ready to move on (again!). If you read my last post, thanks for bearing with me. It felt good to get my feelings out into the universe.
I heard an old cliche yesterday, that happiness is a state of mind. And it is so true. You can choose to be happy or you can choose to be angry or mad or sad. Life is so much better when you choose to be happy. Now, I'm not saying that life isn't hard, cause it is a lot of the time, but it's so much better to live and let live. I am working on trying to make myself a better person, and there will be some bumps in the roads (those bumps being people or events) and I can choose to let them pull me down, or I can choose to stand back up and carry on. I think I am going to go with the standing back up option. Another cliche, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger!
I want to start to get rid of my negative thoughts or feelings as soon as they start to happen. Nip them in the bud as soon as possible instead of letting them settle and fester in my head. That was my problem yesterday, I let that anger and resentment get the best of me and it won and ruined my day and almost today as well. I woke up in a bad mood and all I wanted to do was sleep. But, I picked up my book and started reading. Then I decided to do some painting of the hallways and I did that for an hour and a half. And now I am thinking about talking a walk. Staying active will also help. Because, for me, the bad things get worse when I sit around dwelling on them. Most of my friends and people that I know think I am a happy person. And last week, I got to thinking that I can put on a good show...because sometimes I have a lot of negativity brewing inside me. But if I work hard I can make that happy person become a reality and not have to 'act' it.

As Oprah would say, this is an Aha! moment for me. It's a new dawn, it's a new day!